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Name: Amber
Country: United States
State: South Carolina
Metro: Columbia
Birthday: 7/28/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: Ministry, Nursing, children, shopping, friends
Occupation: Medical
Industry: Medical
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Member Since:
10/26/2005
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| For those of you who know me well or have been one of my many roommates, you know that for some reason i continue to think that people, in general, are nice, compassionate and "good". I dont know why, cause i have repeateadly found out the hard way that this is not true. It doesnt take a Bible college degree to realize that all men are sinful and our very nature without Christ is just the opposite... mean, selfish and certainly not compassionate. In fact, all it takes is turning the news on to see that people all over the world are not good.
I say this to preface my entry because yesterday i was let down again by mankind. It actually wasnt me that was directly affected, but my patient. I had cared for the sweetest little old lady for the past couple weeks and I knew that I was way to attached to her. I knew because of her sickness that she wouldnt last long, but I still allowed myself to give her special attention, brush her hair, talk with her etc. Sometimes as a nurse it is necessary to keep your distance emotionally and other times it seems vital not to. Then when the hurt comes from losing that patient, you just grieve and move on as any one else who was affect would.
This sweet lady was transferred to another floor early in the week and her family,from out of town, was notified that she would not make it through the night and they should come. (This is after I spoke with them daily on the phone when I cared for her and encouraged them to come and sit with this lady who was all alone). They refused and simply asked for her body to be sent to them for a proper burial. Sure enough she died early in the morning when the nurses were changing shifts and she was all alone. Can you imagine what it would be like to take your lasts breaths all by yourself? To me that is such a heartless thing to do to someone you love. Even though I dont know this family or there circumstances, i was so angry at them. How could they not visit her? How could they not come, knowing she was gonna die? How could anyone be so cruel? I was so puzzled driving home last night thinking about it. Then i came to the same realization that i have many times in this situation. People are not good. People do not just naturally show compassion and love and care for each other selflessly. These are things that the holy spirit does in our hearts as we grow in our relationship with Christ and become more and more sanctified.
Thanks for letting me ramble and get that off my chest. If i didnt have an outlet for all the emotions I expereinced at work, I would prob be a quite depressed nurse. | | |
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I heard this song at church today and it brought back memories of times the Lord has really encouraged me. Sometimes when im really stressed or overwhelmed by life, I sit and think about the words to this song. I hope it brings you encouragement.
Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change, He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake
To guide the future, as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know
His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.
Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,
And all is darkened in the vale of tears,
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.
Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay
From His own fullness all He takes away.
Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord.
When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past
All safe and blessèd we shall meet at last.
Be still, my soul: begin the song of praise
On earth, be leaving, to Thy Lord on high;
Acknowledge Him in all thy words and ways,
So shall He view thee with a well pleased eye.
Be still, my soul: the Sun of life divine
Through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine. | | |
| Today I taked to an old friend. It was so refreshing. I am convinced that God prompted her to call me. It was so encouraging. We haven't talked in years and after five minutes of catch up we soon discovered we were going through very similar struggles. It was amazing. I haven't been able to find anyone who truly understands how I feel about what I am dealing with and have been dealing with for awhile now. Hearing her share her thoughts was like she was seeing deep into my heart. I pray we can get together soon. It did my heart good to have true company. Thank you, God.
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Hmmm...it has been awhile since I have written. All is well here. Good news...Allison and I will be moving into an apartment soon! How cool is that. I also did something this past week that I haven't done in almost a year in a half. I went on a second date with a guy. For various reasons I have only been on first dates for quite awhile and then it wouldnt work out. So...i was pretty excited and the date was a lot of fun! Those of you who REALLY know me know that this is quite an accomplishment. Thats all...Bye! | | |
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I know that most of you can think of a time in life where God has shook you. Meaning... something happened or almost happened and it really got your attention. I think that some of these are wake up calls that God uses to get our attention. (let me emphasis that I am not saying that God causes disaster and calamity in our lives...but he does allow it to happen). My family experienced one yesterday. I dont know if God caused it or allowed it but I believe beyond a shadow of a doubt that he WILL use it for His good, which includes bringing glory to himself.
The details are not important and infact it is something I do not want to talk about much. However, I will tell you that I almost lost a member of my family. My family is extremely close and when I got "the call" I was devestated. It was like living a nightmare. I don't know what God wants us to see, but we all believe that he protected my family member and that he will use this to show us something about himself.
I am sure that some of you reading this have experienced an actual death of a loved one and to you I have to say I am so sorry. I can't imagine the pain. I have had my grandma die and it was sad, but I was not very close to her so it did not affect me as much as it did my parents. As some of you know, my biggest fear in life is the death of my family. I know it is inevitable, but I am still so scared of that temporary separation. It is very hard for me to be away from those I love. Im not one of those people who can handle long distance relationships very long. I just need to be near my loved ones.
Anyways... through this experience i have not stopped thanking God for his protection and faithfulness. I don't know why these things...and much worse things happen, but that is not important. No matter what I know God is still God. Thank you Lord for your peace and comfort. |
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